The year is already over..

Yes, and mine was over on July 6, the day I came back home to Indonesia.

Even so, all the memories during that one year will always be in my heart.. Sheesh thinking of it might even make me cry.. Sometimes I hate being so sensitive over these things.. I cry easily either when I'm mad or touched :S

The exchange students and my host families are the most unforgettable people in my exchange year. Sure, I spent a lot of time with my classmates in school thinking that the rule said I should make more friends with the locals.. But then, i misunderstood the rule. Thinking about it makes it feel stupid, but it's passed... I regret not spending more time with the other exchange students more.. But I did not regret spending a lot of time with my host families.. :)

Even though I might not be in contact with a lot of people from my exchange year, they are still part of my precious memories in Taiwan. People have been busy with their school and social life back home, and me too, although I haven't socialized that well yet with my new classmates. I thought I had changed, but the shy part of me still hasn't changed. When I'm hyper I laugh and talk, but I am still easily distracted; emotionally distracted. When something is in my mind and I think of it all the time, I might become quieter and not talk, and try to force myself to talk to people, mostly feeling disappointed in myself eventually.

I feel like my head would explode any minute, and feel like I want to be able to hibernate and just sleep peacefully. However I know that's not possible. I have things I need and have to do, and time will never stop flowing.

The conflicts inside me might not be something really big or important, but I tend to think over small things. I don't like this tendency of mine, but that's me. I have two choices: change it, or leave it. Hard way or easy way. Better ending or worse ending.

Again about my year, truthfully I regretted a lot of things. I know, such a wonderful year shouldn't be regretted, but I can't help it. I hate people who always criticize you not for who you are now but the 'past' you, but then personally inside me, I often dwell over my past experiences. Mostly ones I don't or never want to be reminded ever again.

One was during my exchange year, but as this is a blog, no matter how I want the others know the truth of that time, it will hurt myself in the end. I was betrayed by someone whom I thought was my best friend in my exchange year. It doesn't really matter any more as the year had ended, but I still wished that she was to be blamed at that time and not me. All because I was oblivious and stupid. I don't hate her, but I can't really trust her any more. That's all.

One was after, but this one might make me cry loads :S

I should start a new blog, as this year is already over, but I might still add things to this blog; either it's something I forgot to write despite how many months had passed or anything related to Taiwan and my exchange year.

After so long

I feel like having bad luck nowadays..

I keep losing things.

First, my newly bought cute name stamp was lost during the 7-day trip, and it's impossible to look for it.

Second, I accidentally left my pencil case in a Pizza Hut in Hualien. One day after I got home from the trip, I bought a new pencil case, and even though I asked the Pizza Hut people to help me send the pencil case, I ended up liking the new pencil case more than the old one. And I thought I loved the old one better.. oh well.

Third, my B.B. Multi Blemish White Balm is LOST. That was a present from my host sister! And it was pretty expensive.. well at least in my eyes.

Fourth, today I just found out that the cookies I bought in Kinmen expired two and three days ago... (I had two bags). AND THE COOKIES TASTE AWESOME... T___T

Fifth, I remember I had something lost but I forgot what it is.

Sixth, I need to do cleaning in my room. I haven't cleaned my room ever since I came here, and I'm gonna clean it the last.. day. Hehehehehe.

This was typed around twenty something of June and I haven't posted this lol

I'll type out a new post.

Host family 3

My bed in my third host family's house :)



The closet



My desk, thanks to me it's messed up already



Computer in my room! And it's new! How cool is that <3

Host family 2

My bedroom



Room + Luggage :)



Wardrobe



Meja dandan



At my host mom & dad's company. Tea set

I love my 2nd host family too! They're really nice, and they taught me a lot of things :)

Host family 1

I should be posting this from looong waay ago. However I'm not that easily excited enough to be urged to take pictures -___-

As for my first host family, I only have the SUPER MESSY version (big thanks to me) and some pictures of the house. I really should take more pictures --"











It's an apartment, and it's on the 7th floor. I don't have pictures of my luggage when I first came, but oh well, it's in my mind <3

Fangirlness

I'm wondering if my fangirlness are gone now.

I used to be a REAL fangirl, and now that I think of it, it IS embarrassing.. LOOL That's what you call experience.

Then my best friend changed me, she made me look into reality and not craze over something that isn't even real.

But I still go 'he's so handsome' or whatever, it's just I go for real people now :p

That day, I went with two of my exchange friends to go watch Twilight.

I was like, awww and well, squealing to myself(of course low volume) and one of my exchange friends said, "Don't be a fangirl. Nobody likes a fangirl,"

Then she explained that soo many girls like Edward and to hear squeals is just tiring. She wasn't angry though, to be more exact she was giving me an advice.

I said I won't be a fangirl in front of her, but those words actually remained in my head. Loool.

Lyrics

Quoted from Fish Leong's Mei You Ru Guo

如果我說 愛我沒有如果
錯過救過 你是不是會難過
若如果拿來當藉口
那是不是有一點弱

It actually encouraged me with the situation I had about a week ago. Well with life going on I got over it, but I will remember that :)